Today,I watched Nip/Tuck, one of the best shows on tv, you know nowadays what's on TV is equivalent to garbage. But anyways, it took another serious turn(like the situations already aren't serious enough) and it came down to religion. And one particular line by Agatha, the prostitute suffering from the legendary "stigmata" stood out amongst others..."don't you understand...there is nothing to believe in anymore." I don't know why, but, that haunts me at times. Why? Because I felt at one that I lost my faith in God. It was easier when you were younger, you didn't have to worry about believing in anything, as long as you believe in God. He was the Almighty, and he would take care of you regardless. We didn't grow up in a religious family, we were what I called NON-ACTIVE Catholics. I believe in God, when when I was 14, I didn't know anymore if there was a God that existed. Maybe it was the whole coming of age thing, growing and changing, when in reality, I would put blame where it wasn't due because I wasn't happy with myself and who I was becoming, so I lost faith because I never felt God answered my prayers to help me change into who I wanted. I realized later, that I should always be happy with who I am, and what I would become. God loves me for who I am, and what I would become in the future, so I should love myself as well. That was lesson I had to learn on my own, and God does answer prayers, it might not be when you want them to be answered, but He does in some form or way. We go through things in life that we don't understand, and at times it may seem unfair, but we go through things for a reason, and in the end, we come out stronger, happier, and in my case, faith restored.
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I hear ya, I almost cried when I found out it wouldn't air again until the summer time :( but hey, you can come by my house and watch it when it comes back on tho :D
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