lolI'm enjoying my vacation time...

...but feeling kind of frustrated. I had an idea for these bracelets that I wanted to sell...the only problem is, I have no idea how to go about getting my idea off of the ground...so I'm thinking, is it going to be like this for all of my ideas? Ugh...just gotta keep trying, I don't give up easily.


Dee told me today that my ringtone on his phone is I Wanna Love You by Donell Jones. I'm like okay...he just got back together with his crazy ass girlfriend, and yet, my ringtone is set to something that should have obviously been set to hers, but okay. I don't have a problem with it...but still, something about that isn't kosher.

So anywho, I've put this post off long enough. I didn't know what I expect when James and I started talking again, apparently I didn't expect much. After we broke up, I did a lot of self-evaluating, trying to better myself as a person. And that's what I did. And like I told him, I feel like I'm on a whole different level than what I was before, and by us rekindling whatever flame there was left was like me taking two steps backwards. Now there was nothing against him as a person, but I refuse to go back to all the drama and fights, I have a lot going for myself. I don't know much if he's changed or not, but I doubt that he has. He suspects that Donald and I "mess"...along with ::BLEEP::(the insecurity still might be there). Oh well, there isn't much I can do about the way he feels.