I'm going through my phone and deleting people I don't talk to, and I come across a few people I haven't spoken to in so long. It's a wonder those numbers are still in my phone because I cut off all contact with them so long ago. Most people would probably consider me to be a bitch because I'm so nonchalant when it comes to just cutting people off. I don't do it to be mean, but once a person has crossed me in any kind of way, it's hard to gain my trust again. I don't have many female friends as is (and my number of male friends outweighs them greatly) because I find females to be petty and catty, and since I don't care to entertain either, I only have a few select girls that are like my sisters. Now guys are different. I'm cool with a lot of guys, unless we were romantically involved at one point then I put a distance between myself and them, simply because there's a boundary I won't cross. Dealing with an X is complicated, I mean, there's a reason why we aren't together now. But back to what I was saying. There's a reason why I don't hesitate to just stop talking to someone. I find people to be dishonest and truly disgusting sometimes, and when I say disgusting, I don't mean in a gross manner. Some people are capable of doing some shady things, and I want no part of that. I'm at an age where I'm tired of the bullshit and the games that come along with befriending a person, whether male or female. I'm tired of having to wonder if that person is toxic, if that person will try to manipulate and use me. I would love to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, but, because of a few lessons I've learned in life, majority of the time people don't even deserve it. So trusting doesn't come easily, and if you lose my trust, gaining it back is damn near impossible.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment